weekend plans?

It's been a few weeks since I've posted. Guess my life has been a little eventful.  *sigh* where do i even begin?  yesterday one of my best friends and i got into a massive text fight.  basically she told me i have to stop making her feel bad or she's leaving.  yes my girl just gave me an ultimatum.  i basically told her that if thats what she needs to do then thats fine.  because honestly, ultimatums dont work...they dont work on boys they dont work on girls. also im not actively making her feel bad.  i feel like im never allowed to introduce any guy to her or shes going to think im dating some loser. she gets mad when i invite them to drinks. mad when i invite them to dinners. mad when i invited my serious boyfriend to her pool party.  its like because her and her boyfriend never hang out means im not allowed to hang out with her unless i too am boyfriend less.  i never tell her what to do with her life but she's always telling me what im doing wrong with mine.  you need to let it go v. dont text him dont call him. let him come to u. dont bring drama. dont get upset when he doesnt show up. excuse me...im allowed to get fucking bloody upset whenever i want to. if u dont like it, dont look at it.  which brings me to the next eventful thing of today. my boss called me and told me he has to write me up because a patient complained that she overheard me swearing in the other room and thought it was very unprofessional.  really lady? u know what happens when u file a complaint? ppl get fired. u literally thought that eavesdropping on my conversation in the other room and hearing me swear (language she claims doesnt offend her) is reason enough to get fired? how about this? how about our coworker was straight up yelling AT patients? is he fired? did he get a formal complaint? and i love how my boss just doesnt stick up for me at all. does he have any idea how much shit i have to deal with at work? does he care that i am literally bending over backwards to try and make everything go smoothly, fix all the technical issues, and am i getting any support? like when the camera exploded and the doc didnt get his pictures and complained that i didnt know what i was doing.  you know what, they dont pay me to be a computer engineer asshole so i did the best i could. do u think my boss stood up for me then? explained that the camera was down and that it wasnt my fault? nope he called me and told me that i would need to be monitored until the doc thought i was satisfactory. REALLY? great so as of right now im a shitty friend and a shitty employee both not my actual problem.  i havent talked to boston boy in almost a month.  strangely ive stopped thinking about him too.  could be that i met a new guy. or a few new guys.  he pretty much asked me to be in a relationship the other day. i said no. i dont know why i said no i have no good reason other than i just dont trust people anymore.  the folks youve known the longest just turn on you in an instant. leaving u hanging, out to dry, on ur own, fed to the wolves.  why would i want to commit myself to someone who inevitably is going to rip my heart out and throw it over a cliff and says "fetch."  is that morbid? am i being dramatic? yes.my friend is having a dinner party friday. i was planning on going. i wanted to go. i wanted to maybe bring a date. she said only if he's cool.  why the fuck would i bring someone with me KNOWING the fact that he's uncool? does that even make sense? if im asking of course he's cool num nuts. its like shes embarrassed by the guys i date. so here's what tmrw has in store. 1. get lectured by my boss for 30 minutes whilst trying to focus on a new site that ive already fucked up in the past. 2. all those phone calls i didnt make? yea gotta do that tmrw too to the home warranty, medical insurance, tattoo parlor. 3. 8pm willl roll around and i will be one of three places: at my friend's party feeling unwelcomed and ashamed since she sincerely expressed her desire to dump me, at my new guy's house feeling incredibly guilty that im not at my friend's dinner party because he wasnt invited but i want to hang out with him, or lastly at home by myself since all my other friends are going to this dinner party and contemplating why i cant keep any healthy relationships with friends, family, boyfriends, coworkers, people.  does this sound like a fun friday night? o did i mention i also have a yeast infection....which means my downstairs is incredibly uncomfortable so no matter where ill be ill be physically irritated....YAY WEEKEND! ugh.

LiVe YoUr LiFe,
Victoria Niles