update: i actually got the job i interviewed for and have been working there for about a month now. havent talked to the afore mentioned fellow in a few weeks and just started dating this new one...who lucky for me is leaving fairly soon to the one of two places i would rather be over everywhere else in this world, los angeles.
im just gonna say this once...i freakin miss LA. i miss the people, the sun, the beaches, the smog, the superficiality, the shopping, the nightlife, the daylife, bascially everything. i miss my friends and the network i created while i was down there. i suppose im just biding my time while im here in the bay but seriously its just not working. as my friend says, currently probably at about 70% happiness right now....but i could be 100% happiness.
i feel like my fire is out, like everyday just rolls into the next and my life has become a string of meaningless moments interupted by the occasional "aha" only to continue droning on. i don't wanna wake up one day feeling like the last few years of my life have just flown by and ive missed all of it. that is why people i have decided...F THIS I AM GETTING THE HELL OUT OF THE BAY!
don't get me wrong, i love my job and the people i work with. im stoked that my mom and i are actually getting along, love that i have money to finally start giving back to everyone whose been so helpful (and get a little somethin somethin for myself) and i absolutely love my kids (i currently am tutoring...7 students, feels like im raising 7 teenagers haha). but honestly i am gonna start saving and looking for jobs in la and nyc starting....right now. it wont be as crazy as before where i spent literally hours everyday applying for jobs, but i will make a pact to look at the damn job website, and heavily consider each and every job in those 2 cities. because someday (hopefully soon) i will find the perfect job in the perfect city and have the perfect amount of work experience that they'll actually interview me. and probably after a few interviews (because let's be honest, snagging the job after 1 interview is quite rare and i doubt itll happen to me twice) i will land a wonderful nuc med tech job in a fabulous city with my best friends and a million reasons to get a whole new wardrobe.
thank you to my girls for constantly reminding me that i need to be back with them, thanks to my friend for giving me the push i needed to be like "what the f am i doing, if i wanna leave i should just do it," and thanks to the boy for giving me fresh inspiration to set a damn goal and just do it. because life is measured by the adventures we take and the milestones we achieve and sweet mother of God i am ready for an adventure.
