I would like to start this post out with a few observations i had this morning.
1. waking up at 7:30am was surprisingly easier than i thought it would be considering i had to get my oil changed before mom got home or she'd chop my head off (death seems like a good motivator)
2. there is nothing that makes me giggle more inside than seeing an old biker gang (i mean american chopper style with leather chaps and vests with tassels and all) in front of a livermore starbucks ... hehe
3. i really do love my bangs and they're easier to maintain than previously imagined. guess i was just going to all the wrong ppl before beautiful nancy gave me my life-changing hair
4. i have a feeling what my "poor work performance" is gonna be next month, somehow boss lady is gonna find out how much i actually surf the internet while im at work...im sure this is a fire-able offense but im hoping she'll think im too sweet to fire?
Just applied to a job at the VA in loma linda. wouldn't that be nice. the government doesn't pay well, but they sure give u nice benefits and excellent job security....YAY we'll see, should apply to some more today too.
mom comes back tomorrow evening. im not sure how much longer i can live like this. i think i figured out why i have to take a vacation every month. it gives me something to look forward to. dont get me wrong its not that im not happy with my life here (i used to be but then i did something about it...WHAT) i have recently acquired some great friends who i can now confidently slide from the acquaintence to i would love to hang out with u anytime just tell me when and where. also reconnected with some old ones (though someone seems to be too busy to see me! ahem..seany). work is going well, i finally feel somewhat integrated into the department....seems like they like me enough and ive worked enough day shifts that ppl are comfortable with me now (including boss lady...who actually is a lot nicer to me that i initially assumed..shame on me for jumping to conclusions). i have actually started saving (feels good to see that number go up in ur savings account...slowly...but increasing never the less). mom and i are quarreling about once a month (which is a RECORD) i mean seriously think about...we can go 30 freakin days without killing each other...its never been this good and im sooooo happy it is, suppose i dont have to rethink her wedding invitation afterall.
and now that the weather is warming up, my days seem a lot brighter (literally and figuratively) so why then, i must ask, am i still not satisfied? Am i such an overachiever that i can never just be content with what i have? what a horrible way to live...i think? i was talking to neilda the other day (one of the ab fab members of the dream team and for sure gonna be one of my bridesmaids even against her will) and we were talking about how much we missed the dream team being together and missed each other and just missed us. the team has fallen apart (aside from me, neilda, and erin) and we're in 3 different cities lol. and u know the more i think about it the more i realize why college was so much fun. work hard play hard...but not even just that it was all about progression. everyday i learned something new, about myself, about my friends, about my major. everyday i had ample supply to quench my thirst for knowledge. every week was about getting to the next, passing each midterm was another check off my list, every class was another accomplishment, and when i finally got to walk in june i felt like i had conquered the proverbial world and i was ready to solve bigger problems. i mean if i can get my bachelors why not fix world hunger! and now, as content and fulfilling my life is now i cant help but to feel there is a hole in my soul where there never was before. i have a thirst for knowledge, a thirst for adventure, a thirst for LIFE that i cannot quench, and everyday i assure myself that i have it good and that im blessed and that someone in the universe really likes me because honestly i couldve turned out a lot worse (like 6 feet under for instance). so how do i quench this thirst? where is my fountain of youth? the endless supply of mother nature's sweet libation that will forever make me feel as young and alive as the most dynamic parts of my childhood, young adulthood?
and so ladies and gentlemen, im perfectly fine with my cpk style margarita pizza, but after ive had the real stuff, the stuff that feeds your soul, i am striving to go back to figurative italy to have just one more bite of sheer and utter bliss.
Live ur Life,
Victoria Niles
1. waking up at 7:30am was surprisingly easier than i thought it would be considering i had to get my oil changed before mom got home or she'd chop my head off (death seems like a good motivator)
2. there is nothing that makes me giggle more inside than seeing an old biker gang (i mean american chopper style with leather chaps and vests with tassels and all) in front of a livermore starbucks ... hehe
3. i really do love my bangs and they're easier to maintain than previously imagined. guess i was just going to all the wrong ppl before beautiful nancy gave me my life-changing hair
4. i have a feeling what my "poor work performance" is gonna be next month, somehow boss lady is gonna find out how much i actually surf the internet while im at work...im sure this is a fire-able offense but im hoping she'll think im too sweet to fire?
Just applied to a job at the VA in loma linda. wouldn't that be nice. the government doesn't pay well, but they sure give u nice benefits and excellent job security....YAY we'll see, should apply to some more today too.
mom comes back tomorrow evening. im not sure how much longer i can live like this. i think i figured out why i have to take a vacation every month. it gives me something to look forward to. dont get me wrong its not that im not happy with my life here (i used to be but then i did something about it...WHAT) i have recently acquired some great friends who i can now confidently slide from the acquaintence to i would love to hang out with u anytime just tell me when and where. also reconnected with some old ones (though someone seems to be too busy to see me! ahem..seany). work is going well, i finally feel somewhat integrated into the department....seems like they like me enough and ive worked enough day shifts that ppl are comfortable with me now (including boss lady...who actually is a lot nicer to me that i initially assumed..shame on me for jumping to conclusions). i have actually started saving (feels good to see that number go up in ur savings account...slowly...but increasing never the less). mom and i are quarreling about once a month (which is a RECORD) i mean seriously think about...we can go 30 freakin days without killing each other...its never been this good and im sooooo happy it is, suppose i dont have to rethink her wedding invitation afterall.
and now that the weather is warming up, my days seem a lot brighter (literally and figuratively) so why then, i must ask, am i still not satisfied? Am i such an overachiever that i can never just be content with what i have? what a horrible way to live...i think? i was talking to neilda the other day (one of the ab fab members of the dream team and for sure gonna be one of my bridesmaids even against her will) and we were talking about how much we missed the dream team being together and missed each other and just missed us. the team has fallen apart (aside from me, neilda, and erin) and we're in 3 different cities lol. and u know the more i think about it the more i realize why college was so much fun. work hard play hard...but not even just that it was all about progression. everyday i learned something new, about myself, about my friends, about my major. everyday i had ample supply to quench my thirst for knowledge. every week was about getting to the next, passing each midterm was another check off my list, every class was another accomplishment, and when i finally got to walk in june i felt like i had conquered the proverbial world and i was ready to solve bigger problems. i mean if i can get my bachelors why not fix world hunger! and now, as content and fulfilling my life is now i cant help but to feel there is a hole in my soul where there never was before. i have a thirst for knowledge, a thirst for adventure, a thirst for LIFE that i cannot quench, and everyday i assure myself that i have it good and that im blessed and that someone in the universe really likes me because honestly i couldve turned out a lot worse (like 6 feet under for instance). so how do i quench this thirst? where is my fountain of youth? the endless supply of mother nature's sweet libation that will forever make me feel as young and alive as the most dynamic parts of my childhood, young adulthood?
and so ladies and gentlemen, im perfectly fine with my cpk style margarita pizza, but after ive had the real stuff, the stuff that feeds your soul, i am striving to go back to figurative italy to have just one more bite of sheer and utter bliss.
Live ur Life,
Victoria Niles
