hello world! true to form i have yet again neglected my bloggingness for the last 3 weeks HOWEVER that is not to say that life has not been absolutely interesting. let me catch up

feb week 1- i have just returned from nyc and am officially off probation! this means im totally a legit worker at SDMC and they can't just fire me cause i suck i have to really f up totally. yay! validation! credibility! legitness! in addition to my awesomeness, feb 3 was the official lunar new year...and its the year of the rabbit this year, go 87! so at this point im in full belief that 2011 will be my year and that i am totally gonna rock all that shit...also im not sure if i mentioned this before but boy from la has proposed that we go on a trip to the motherland together (or mother-island).  i am not sure if he's being serious or not, and either way im not sure how i feel about it anyways. i REALLY like this guy...however trips are things reserved for couples...right?

feb week 2- this whole week was pretty much gearing up for the crazy weekend pre v-day.  feb 12 i babysat the twins ALL DAY and lets just say they were not happy campers.  there was some nonsense about necklaces and not being able to share things and so and so is crying because so and so hit them and blah blah blah.  what i learned from this saturday is that i have a surprisingly high tolerance for children's insufferable behavior. good/bad?  feb 13 i tutored all day. thats right folks, 2 three year olds on saturday, and 5 teenagers on sunday....GO VIV.  after tutoring i proceed to drive 1.25 hrs across the bay to leave my car at the hospital where my friends picks me up and we join his friends at rubyskye in the city.  yay clubbing (electronica music so not really my scene but hafta admit it was good).  got back to the car around 3:30am and crashed for a couple hours in a sleeping bag in the back of the stang.  v-day, i went to work the 7am shift at the hospital. lets just say it was a fairly full day of hung overness, a million patients, and no lunch...move on.

feb week 3- i text boy from la on vday saying happy vday and then followed up the next day with an "im disappointed i received no reply" to which i pick up a phone call from him saying he's been meaning to call but got busy (just in case u read this boy....ITS OK i wasn't expecting u to call so don't feel bad for not, just wishful thinking).  I then hear that he is coming to the Bay Area at the end of feb....thinking i had a month to get my bikini bod ready for miami i now realize bikini bod must be ready when he gets here...in 2 weeks. fml  friday night i go clubbing with guys from east bay to the city.  boy i had been kinda fooling around with came too and it was the first time i had seen him since my bday, the last time we hooked up.  we talked briefly (while intoxicated) about the issue and decided there wasnt one and moved on....yay no drama!  then oddly enough i chose not to hook up with him (i actually think this is the first time i said no since we started actually hooking up)...go me?  on saturday mom and i hit up the chinese new year festival in sf and cause we couldn't get an appointment with the fortune teller had to go back again on sunday.  sat night went to hang out with people i went clubbing with at rubyskye last weekend.  fun fun times, always have a great time hanging with those people and im convinced i fit in much better with them than the other group of guys i hang with.  lemme tell u what the fortune teller said...

prospects for 2011.
feb- lazy, relaxed, lucky (ok so far...pretty true)
march- travel, falling in love with a married man, and some other stuff i cant remember (i am going to miami)
april- heartbreak, poor work performance possibly leading to my being fired....awesome
may- forced to look for a new job (prbly due to my recent release), new boy (always a new boy)
june- month of romance, happiness, and good job performance (at least i won't be unemployed long)
july- heartbreak, turmoil, and some other stuff i again can't remember
august- actually...cant remember what he said for aug...prbly another boy
sept- travel to see my grandma in hk...i dont know why, havent seen the lady in like 4 years...
oct, nov, dec can't remember (it's all written somewhere so i'll look it up later)

when i asked him if 2012 would be any better he looked at his sheet and just said....NO NO NO NO NO....2012 ALL CHAOS! when i asked him if i'd have a bf he said...o yes definitely have a bf...definitely he will betray you and break your heart.  he then proceeds to tell me, but after 2012 all smooth sailing, you will get married and have children and your husband will take care of u and u will live happily ever after.....o and he predicts ill marry a foreigner (not chinese), most likely a caucasian....

OK GUY SERIOUSLY!!!!!! i may not even live to 2013 at this rate let alone happily ever never! he told me there are too many boys in my life and that i fall in love really easily and that i drink too much and that i never really liked studying i just like to socialize.  even though that's totally true, what am i supposed to do go live in a nunnery? *sigh* fabulous...i was really hoping id be over all the boy and job bullshit for a while BUT i guess the worst has just begun....absolutely fabulous.

well fine universe...f me over then, break my heart, fire me from my job, force me to move when im not ready....BRING IT ON! cause u know what, there ain't nothin uve thrown at me that i have not totally gotten through better on the other side for...so the gauntlet has been thrown and i pick it up to accept ur challenge.

Live ur Life,
Victoria Niles

Eating Wax

True to form i have neglected my blogging duties for 2 weeks now.  not for lack of good reason, i have been relatively busy and yet not really busy at all...i believe the word for that is bored. as far as resolutions go i have already broken 1 and almost killed myself in an attempt to not break another.  im sure those who know me can guess which ones. i have a most hilarious story for this week's entry that will completely sum up how i feel about myself.


last night i was having a dream (like i do almost every night which i blame on an overactive imagination and a refusal to grow up) when i decided to eat a neutral, brown colored gummy life saver.  dont ask me where this candy came from or why there wasnt more but there is good reason they never produced this color cause it tasted awful.  not even just bad it was bland, like eating rubber.  well you know how in a dream you go through the motions but your senses are sometimes dulled.  as i continued to eat this life saver and chew and chew and chew and all the while coming to the conclusion that this really tasted awful, i began to reject my dream so much that the disgust in my taste actually woke me up.  as i began to wake up i realized that i was indeed chewing something and that it indeed tasted worse than in my dream.  about 2 seconds later i realized i was chewing on one of my wax ear plugs that i had put in prior to going to bed since i sleep in the living room and it is impossible to get a good night's sleep without the aid of audio blocking devices.  i sprung out of bed ran to the bathroom, spit it out and rinsed out my mouth.  in utter horror i proceeded to go back to sleep but once i awoke again went through the rest of my day still able to taste and feel the waxy chewed up bits of grossness lingering in my mouth.

needless to say i was traumatized by this event and told my mother.  when she asked why i subconsciously ate one of my ear plugs i told her "because i am so unhappy with my life right now that i have decided eating wax would be a tangible equivalent to how i feel."  so there you have it folks, 2011, the year of the rabbit...MY YEAR is as predicted sucking horribly.  according to mother this is the year for me to lay low since i will be having rather rotten luck.  holy snot it's been 5 days....360 to go, lord have mercy.

Live ur Life,
Victoria Niles