Thursday, January 27, 2011

I'm leaving on a jet plane

dont know when ill be back again...actually ill be back on monday night. Flying to nyc this weekend to see lover! and to catch up with a few other new yorkers that i haven't seen in ages, and by ages i mean YEARS.  which brings me to my next point.  friends are like really good books. we meet people and books the exact same way.  you look over and if the cover seems interesting enough you walk over for a closer look.  or maybe you get past all that awkwardness casue your friend introduces you and so you already know this new book is going to be at least not terrible since your friend liked it and you trust your friend. 

then maybe you'll read the back cover and get a general gist of what this books all about and if THAT seems intriguing enough you'll open the book and start reading.  Now everyone reads books differently. i know some people that like to steadily read a book a chapter a day til the whole thing gets read.  some people like to go to the end, figure out what thats all about and then read the beginning.  and then theres folks like me who will read the book until i feel like putting it down and that a judgement for me on how good that book is.  Same way when I talk to people.  If the first minute seems interesting enough I'll continue that conversation until it stops.  And the good friends, not just the filler friends that you invite to parties to make yourself seem cool, but the real ones that you really enjoy, the conversation never really ends.  you just love talking/being with them so much that you decide that although you have to go eat, sleep, and work you would still like to come back to this book and pick up right where you left off because the material is just so darn stimulating.

But alas, people move away, books get put in a box somewhere and all but forgotten about.  and from time to time something will trigger your memory and you'll say hey i remember reading a book like this once and it was awesome, i wonder whatever happened to it?  now most of the time these thoughts will fade as soon as theyre formed until the next time you see that back or someone talks about it then you'll jump in the convo with nothing but great things to say about it.  But sometimes, sometimes you just can't get that darn book out of your head and you keep wondering where the hell did it go..SERIOUSLY!

and then you'll go digging through the boxes of books (or your contacts list) and find this oldie but goodie that you havent seen in a while and immediately a smile spreads across your face. and you think "you know its been so many years since ive read this book i dont even remember exactly what happens.  i know the general plot line, and the few crucial details that stuck in my mind but i just dont remember its entirety."  and so you open the book and start reading and you remember all the reasons why you liked it in the first place.  the flow of the words, the personality of the story that just leaps off the page, the feeling you get as you continue to turn the pages.  and before you know it you're off again on this fantastic adventure.  when you finally finish and you put the book down you realize that although the book is the same, the journey this time was different.  and you will continue to discover that everytime you read this book the journey will be a little different.  because you're different and so you pick up on things from this book that you wouldn't have deemed significant or relative before. 

Good friends get mentioned in passing conversations and are thought of from time to time and if they're in the area you say hi and you'll catch up and its all hunky dory.  Best friends are the ones that you can pick up years later and start yet another wondrous adventure when you will learn new things about them that you didn't notice before because you're different now and so you relate to different aspects of their personality.  and as corny as it sounds, great friends (no matter how far away or how long its been) never get old.  and the absolute best thing about a best friend is that everytime you see them....read them...you get to fall in love all over again.  Besties you know who you are and I truly believe that karma has blessed me in letting me have not one, but so many of you in my life.  can't wait til our next adventure even if its years from now, cause i know itll be just as fabulous as the first time. <3

Live ur Life,
Victoria Niles

Monday, January 24, 2011

New Year's Resolutions

so i realize i havent been on this in a bit but honestly with the holidays and blah blah blah its been quite a busy month for me.  BUT not to worry I have plenty of gossip for y'all.  first things first I would like to say that I believe New Year's Resolutions is a load of bull.  Everyone says theyre gonna do all these amazing things but nothing gets done.  3 weeks later the gyms are empty, diets have been abandoned, and ppl are back at the bars drinking as much as they were prior to theyre "im drinking less" idea.  so when people ask me if i have any new years resolutions i say no...why?...because if i want shit to get done i will make it happen and i don't need a special date to kick my but into gear.  however, in the spirit of things i have formulated a list of goals for this upcoming year of 2011 and have decided in honor of it being my year (the rabbit) I will meticulously document everything that happens to me this year (and by meticulous i really mean once a week will be a stretch for me).  so to kick this blog off lets start with that list shall we?

1. I will get my abs back...so help me god I will look amazing damn it!
2. I will swear to celibacy (before u freak out and think im a reformed sinner let me clarify).  I will ONLY have sex with a guy if and only if we are actually dating.  Dating is qualified as 2 months of continual contact, dates, and actual feelings for each other.  SOOO for all you users out there (and deep down you know who you are) sorry but these legs are CLOSED.
3.  I will break even by 3/31 and save 70% of every paycheck starting 4/1. lord help me
4. I will find a job in la or nyc...i will be picky and i will not settle for anything less than im worth.
5. I will save 1 day a week to myself.  That means no friends, no family, no nobody.  Just vivian, the sunshine, a cup of java and maybe a trip to the mall.
6.  I will start reading for pleasure again.  I miss it, so in an effort to culture myself I will read 1 book a month for the rest of the year.
7.  I will visit la at least 2 more times this year.  Friends are as important as family and should be treated as such, especially since yall are so darn close.
8.  I will not...REPEAT WILL NOT..let a boy make me cry this year.  I am totally awesome and as Aneea would say should never compromise myself.
9.  I will not give into the temptation of drink.  Everytime I think to myself "wow I could use a drink" I will put my glass down.  Drinking should be for pleasure not for relief. (although I fully believe I have lots to drink for)
10.  And lastly, I will not raise my voice at my mother this year.  That's right, you heard it hear first.  Knowing me this will be by far the hardest "resolution" for me to keep, but possibly the most important.  Fact: I love my mother.  Fact: She is a crazy bitch.  Fact: My mother loves me.  Fact: I will treat her like someone who loves me, not a crazy bitch (even though she is one...let's just reiterate that)

OK so there's my beautiful list of resolutions and I will try my best to stick to them.  I will put them in my phone and carry them with me wherever I go and inform you guys as to my progress.  That being said onto the fun stuff.

I am currently sitting in Starbucks at hacienda crossings (which is the central hub of all social interactions in pleasanton) and just witnessed a most hysterical situation.  3 girls (hs seniors..MAYBE college freshman) were sitting at a table to my right. A boy (and I say boy because only a boy would try to pick up on 3 hs girls wingmanless at a startbucks in ptown) walks up to the girls and awkwardly starts a conversation.  I believe the opening line was "hey do you guys know _____?" which of course the girls answered no.  and then he proceeds to tell them that he is a pscyhology/biochemistry double major (everyone ooooo cause its really impressive) at which the girls respond "o wow really!"  and then he proceeds to tell them that he saw them through the window of starbucks and that they looked really nervous and how he can tell because one was twirling her hair and the other was biting her lip....at this point the couple sitting across the table from me have also picked up on this hilarity and we have proceeded to give each other an "are you seroius" look.  Eventually the guy gets the hint and apologizes for interupting their conversation and leaves starbucks.  The girls giggle because im sure none of them have ever received that kind of male attention before (they were not attractive at all) only to be approached by yet another boy (and i use the term boy loosely cause this guy was at least 30) who opened with "can you believe that guy, wasn't he weird?"  and they giggled and i died inside laughing because im thinking "you think HE'S WEIRD! HAHAHAHAHA"  o but it gets better....so boy number 2 leaves and boy number 1 comes BACK INTO STARBUCKS...i repeat he returns to the scene of the crime and attempts try number 2.  This time he opens with "I'm sorry I just have to make sure, you guys really don't know ____?" they returned with "nope, we don't know him" and he goes ok sorry again to interrupt your conversations, bye and they say see you in a minute! and at this point i cannot contain my laughter and me and the couple start busting up laughing.  *sigh* the lesson ladies and gentlemen is not my shitty grammar (which ive just realized i only used quotation about half the time they were appropriate) but that boys will do anything in their quest to impress a female, and even the things they say they wont do they wont do because they want to give females a certain impression of them and thus are still trying to impress the females.  I do not include males in this conversation because gay boys and straight boys flirt completely differently and honestly i believe that open gay boys have the type of confidence in themselves that the rest of us only dream of and thus do not have to waste their time impressing their mates because..well they already know how impressive they are lol.

Alright i belive that is enough for one night...lots of stuff has happened this month of january that im sure will come up later in blogging so i will not fret you with the details now.  until we meet again (which will hopefully be next week)...

LiVe Ur LiFe,
Victoria Niles