so um the post below this one is definitely that of my roomate sonia who just studied abroad in spain. unfortunately i was no so lucky to do so and i have been stuck here in los angeles for the past 3.5 years. Haven't written on this in while and ive been meaning to write more often but i cant seem to find the time. actually i cant seem to find the time to do much of anything anymore. i find my life becoming completely void of all purpose as if in a stand still. im just stalling right now til something comes along to kick me in the ass. for those who dont know im not applying for medical school anymore or at least not anytime soon. I am looking into certifcation in nuclear medicine technology, which would be cool, and at least give me something to do and some cash to live off of while i figure my life out. sometimes i wish there was a roadmap to life, can u just imagine how much easier it would be to actually live and enjoy our time here if we didnt spend so much of it trying to figure out what the fuck is going on? im ridiculously jealous of people who know what they want in life and are going for it. i remember what that felt like a couple years ago, and now ive become the epitome of what i strived hardest to avoid: ending up a college grad who has no idea what they want to do or where they're going to go. at first it was strangely liberating but now..now its just unecessarily daunting. in any case now im just rambling about all the horriblness that is school and work and not fun stuff...lets talk about fun stuff, like dating.
so one of my friend's is like the date master and is currently semi-seeing three to four guys right now (the last one is yet to be determined). they are all ridiculously good looking and fun people. wtf..she has three and a half and i cant even get one. though at one point in time i had three, then zero, and now one...sort of..though after last night im not sure anymore. question for the ladies, do u ever find urself believing someone even though u know the probablity of them not telling the truth is high? i mean a guy tells u o i dont just hook up with ppl...uh huh...and then an hour later u find urself getting booted from his apartment and ur like wow really...i shouldve seen that coming. and gentlemen, girls would rather u be brutally honest. we understand just needing to "get some" trust me..me of all ppl..lol, but dont tell a girl that u find her fun and interesting and that ull call her and that ull hang out and that ur "not that type of guy" and that u take offense when she compares u to all the other guys she's been with because guess what, u try to pull that shit on her and then end up turning into another one of her statistics. its cruel and rude..just be like look i dont want to date people right now im enjoying being single..and most likely she'll be like ok thats cool and that way at least when she gets attached u can be like well i told u i didnt want anything, rather than her being all like well great he told me all these grandiose claims of being amazing and really he's just an ordinary tool. sorry i know that was mean but ive been recently disappointed so i need somewhere to let it out.
ok i feel like im done typing for now, possibly ill be blogging later, we'll see. in any case i really hope that my life will turn around somehow, i feel like not only am i ready for a change, but honestly i deserve it. for those with the benefit of having at least some things go your way, don't ever forget to
Live ur Life,
Victoria Niles
