Thursday, January 3, 2013

probably...definitely.

was it something i did, something i said? probably. definitely. is there something wrong with me? probably....definitely.  when did i become this person? this person who is defective, broken, weak. i am incredible after all. im good looking, independent, sweet, sassy, bold, submissive. im smart, cute, adorable, sexy.  i own my own place, have a great job, am totally self sufficient. im creative, im light and im dark.  im the girl you want to bring home to your mother and show off to all your bros.  im the girl that everyone wants on their team. im the girl who always has your back.  im fun, playful, serious, deep.  genuine, honest, beautiful. i am all of these things and yet i am nothing. i am someone to no one and no one to everyone.  confused? me too.  why did he pick her over me ill never know. what she has to offer that i dont have ten times over ill never know. im a great catch. ive been told by many people who would know a thing or two about great catches.  im a diamond in the rough. a puppy in the pound. im just waiting to be scooped up by some lucky bastard.  and yet there are no takers. there never are.  its so easy to get a date these days. just walk outside the house.  it might even be easy to get a boyfriend.  its damn near impossible to get someone to tell me the truth. so many men, so many lies over the last few years. i dont know who or what to believe anymore. what she has over me i'll never know..but he is wrong.  i am better for him than her in every way. i am better for him than everyone in every way.  but he doesn't see. he doesn't care. doesn't see whats in front of him.  and so i cut the chord. its time now. time to float away. hopefully someone else will catch my string before i reach the atmosphere and drift so far away i have no choice but to explode and fall back to the ground. broken. torn. dead.

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