I believe today (a random Tuesday afternoon mind you) is a perfect time to update you and myself on my new year's resolutions. in no apparent order (because let's be honest nobody remembers anything i say anyways including myself) we shall address each one and note the progress.
1. the first one i remember is reading a book each month...i did not read a book in febuary but considering i read 3 in january i think i should have a little leeway here. however i am about to fly across the country next week so i believe reading a book is completely in order (maybs ill hit up border's big close-out sale and see if i can snag something awesome).
2. do not raise my voice at my mother. alas i actually have been able to keep this one. we had one fight last month when i really thought i was going to have to rip her head off but i kept my cool (sort of) and did not resort to yelling..just repeating my point over and over again in a stern and forceful tone...baby steps. things between us have smoothed out a bit and considering how long we've been living together i say we have made leaps and bounds of improvement in our relationship..may the healing continue
3. do not have sex with a man unless we've been DATING for at least 2 months....strangely enough i have yet to break this one as well...that is not for lack of opportunity but saying no is surprisingly easier than i thought it would be. here's the deal...i dont know if u know but I know that im an amazing catch with much more to offer a man than my feminine wiles. therefore, it is a good weeding process for me to make him wait because it filters out the guys who do not care what else i have to offer other than my body...which is fine but they can go stick their dicks in someone else's vagina because i am so much more than just a hole to bang. that being said...vivian has 3 dates this weekend...don't ask me how it happened and no im not leading anyone on (first dates, we're just talking!) but i can see how this will quickly head for a downward spiral...just like senior year at ucla...i had to move to fix that problem *sigh* well we'll see what happens!
4. i will not let a boy make me cry this year. unfortunately this is not true. though he has not directly made me cry (as in by anything he has said or done) it did bring tears to my eyes when i realized i may have been taken advantage of. boys u need to know, when u do things for a girl like take her out to breakfast after sex or inviting her over to watch a movie and then actually freakin watching the movie...we take these things to mean u actually have feelings for us. so please dont "be nice" or "considerate" be HONEST. if u dont like us then dont do things to pretend show us that u care because then we both know that it was just a random hook up and not to get our hopes up because you dont give a crap about us anyway. that being said everytime i think of this boy it makes me smile...then it makes me sad because i dont think he feels the same way about me as i have about him for YEARS...and i was drunk and dumb and succumbed to the temptation of falling for him all over again...and until i know exactly how he feels about me i'll never really be able to get over it. then again part of me doesnt want to know because im afraid i wont like the answer. boy if ur reading this do me a favor and just tell me how u feel cause im going crazy over here.
5. I will get my abs back...so just fyi i have been dieting for the last week and have successfully dropped about 3lbs. this week will involve more intense dieting and hopefully another 3 lbs will go bye bye. post miami viv will have to start some sort of work out schedule to get rid of the last 5 lbs (whether it involves running or something) because i no longer think dieting alone will help..great
6. I will break even by 3/31 and save 70% of every paycheck starting 4/1. i am happy to say i have totally paid my mom back in full, broke even and have just started saving 30/70. and im a WHOLE MONTH EARLY! go viv...ur amazing, we'll see if ur saving habits can carry through miami
7. I will find a job in la or nyc, officially i have applied to 5 jobs and am applying to a couple more today...i really need to pick up the slack on this cause 5-8 jobs in 2 months is absolutely not enough.
8. I will save 1 day a week to myself. ok so ive been kinda dropping the ball on this one..the weekend is pretty much booked everyday from fri night through monday morning cause im hanging with friends...and the last couple weeks i have been working full days everyday. but soon i will have a week of vaca so yay!
9. I will visit la at least 2 more times this year. i am planning an la trip in april....so socalers...watch out!
10. I will not give into the temptation of drink. haha so funny story about this one...i have not drank when i felt like i could use a drink...thats not to say i havent been clubbing and drinking a ton while out haha...however i have not been sloppy drunk since ive made this decision so baby steps..props to me
There you have it...now we're all officially caught up. another recap will probably happen in a few months but next weeks posting will probably be about the dates this weekend and SPRING BREAK!
Live ur Life,
Victoria Niles
1. the first one i remember is reading a book each month...i did not read a book in febuary but considering i read 3 in january i think i should have a little leeway here. however i am about to fly across the country next week so i believe reading a book is completely in order (maybs ill hit up border's big close-out sale and see if i can snag something awesome).
2. do not raise my voice at my mother. alas i actually have been able to keep this one. we had one fight last month when i really thought i was going to have to rip her head off but i kept my cool (sort of) and did not resort to yelling..just repeating my point over and over again in a stern and forceful tone...baby steps. things between us have smoothed out a bit and considering how long we've been living together i say we have made leaps and bounds of improvement in our relationship..may the healing continue
3. do not have sex with a man unless we've been DATING for at least 2 months....strangely enough i have yet to break this one as well...that is not for lack of opportunity but saying no is surprisingly easier than i thought it would be. here's the deal...i dont know if u know but I know that im an amazing catch with much more to offer a man than my feminine wiles. therefore, it is a good weeding process for me to make him wait because it filters out the guys who do not care what else i have to offer other than my body...which is fine but they can go stick their dicks in someone else's vagina because i am so much more than just a hole to bang. that being said...vivian has 3 dates this weekend...don't ask me how it happened and no im not leading anyone on (first dates, we're just talking!) but i can see how this will quickly head for a downward spiral...just like senior year at ucla...i had to move to fix that problem *sigh* well we'll see what happens!
4. i will not let a boy make me cry this year. unfortunately this is not true. though he has not directly made me cry (as in by anything he has said or done) it did bring tears to my eyes when i realized i may have been taken advantage of. boys u need to know, when u do things for a girl like take her out to breakfast after sex or inviting her over to watch a movie and then actually freakin watching the movie...we take these things to mean u actually have feelings for us. so please dont "be nice" or "considerate" be HONEST. if u dont like us then dont do things to pretend show us that u care because then we both know that it was just a random hook up and not to get our hopes up because you dont give a crap about us anyway. that being said everytime i think of this boy it makes me smile...then it makes me sad because i dont think he feels the same way about me as i have about him for YEARS...and i was drunk and dumb and succumbed to the temptation of falling for him all over again...and until i know exactly how he feels about me i'll never really be able to get over it. then again part of me doesnt want to know because im afraid i wont like the answer. boy if ur reading this do me a favor and just tell me how u feel cause im going crazy over here.
5. I will get my abs back...so just fyi i have been dieting for the last week and have successfully dropped about 3lbs. this week will involve more intense dieting and hopefully another 3 lbs will go bye bye. post miami viv will have to start some sort of work out schedule to get rid of the last 5 lbs (whether it involves running or something) because i no longer think dieting alone will help..great
6. I will break even by 3/31 and save 70% of every paycheck starting 4/1. i am happy to say i have totally paid my mom back in full, broke even and have just started saving 30/70. and im a WHOLE MONTH EARLY! go viv...ur amazing, we'll see if ur saving habits can carry through miami
7. I will find a job in la or nyc, officially i have applied to 5 jobs and am applying to a couple more today...i really need to pick up the slack on this cause 5-8 jobs in 2 months is absolutely not enough.
8. I will save 1 day a week to myself. ok so ive been kinda dropping the ball on this one..the weekend is pretty much booked everyday from fri night through monday morning cause im hanging with friends...and the last couple weeks i have been working full days everyday. but soon i will have a week of vaca so yay!
9. I will visit la at least 2 more times this year. i am planning an la trip in april....so socalers...watch out!
10. I will not give into the temptation of drink. haha so funny story about this one...i have not drank when i felt like i could use a drink...thats not to say i havent been clubbing and drinking a ton while out haha...however i have not been sloppy drunk since ive made this decision so baby steps..props to me
There you have it...now we're all officially caught up. another recap will probably happen in a few months but next weeks posting will probably be about the dates this weekend and SPRING BREAK!
Live ur Life,
Victoria Niles
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